There is so much to be thankful for this season, including simply, THIS SEASON! Thanksgiving and Christmas are 2 of my favorite holidays, filled with family, friends, fun, and lots of wonderful traditions and memories.
At Sadie's 1 week appointment, she weighed 8 lb exactly, already 5 ounces above her birth weight. She is eating well and seems pretty typical of a newborn. We are so thankful to have a healthy baby.
For Thanksgiving, sweet friends from church invited us over for dinner and we had a nice time. Though we certainly missed seeing family, we are thankful for good friends to include us. It was also nice to enjoy a wonderful meal and not have to worry about that with a 10 day old. I was fully prepared to get a spiral ham, instant stuffing, and bake a few sweet potatoes.
I must say, thus far, Jude has been wonderfully patient with moments like these when Mommy has to disappear. Just this morning, he ran into the kitchen and whispered, "I checked on Sadie and she's doing ok."
After the game, we went to Snowflake Lane where Jude enjoyed the pretend snow, music, and drums. He also really got a kick out of meeting Rudolph and Frosty. He requests their songs constantly.
He is also WAY too observant. Today, while playing with his Little People Nativity scene, he made shooting sounds with a wise man. I asked him, "What are you doing?" and he said, "shooting the angels". My mouth dropped and I told him we are to NEVER pretend to shoot anything, especially people. (Mind you, Justin has had the conversations with him concerning gun safety and only shooting animals for food multiple times.) Long story short, he apparently saw a scene from Ratatoullie (spell check) where the old lady tries to shoot the mice. He literally watched the movie for less than 10 minutes and that's what he picked up.
Any who, we're excited about my sister and Eli coming for a visit this week and making lots of holiday memories with them!
Sunday, November 24, 2013
My Mom left today, which brought out my surge of post partum emotions. When she walked out the door with Justin and Jude, I just held Sadie and cried. She was so wonderful to have here during this time. God has so richly blessed us with supportive friends and family here, but to have my Mom here to help with Jude and just love on me was so needed this past week.
I had my Hillsong radio station playing on Pandora and the song "Your Grace Is Enough" was playing when they left. I sensed the Holy Spirit telling me to just worship and be thankful, so I did. Thankfully! I placed Sadie down in her crib, sat on my bed, cried, and worshiped. I truly needed this experience. My heart is so overwhelmed with thankfulness and joy. I asked God to help me remember this, just like the Isrealites were told to pick up stones while crossing the river to remember. When my heart feels dry and empty. When the days are long with 2 little ones; remember this feeling of immense thankfulness to have 2 healthy babies, a supportive family, a great group of friends, and a loving husband. To remember what His goodness feels like.
My heart is so full!
Thankfully, this time around, I'm trying to just enjoy her sweet tininess. These moments go far too quickly. I love her snuggles, the funny noises she makes, the gassy smiles while she sleeps, and her teensy baby love. I am so amazed by God's rich blessings when I look at her and Jude.
Thank you Lord, for you abundance of blessings. My you remind my heart of your goodness and grace always.
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Sadie Caroline Dellinger
Born: Sunday, November 17, 2013, 9:47 am
7 lb. 11 oz
20 inches long
Our hearts are overwhelmed with joy and excitement as we welcome our sweet baby girl to our family. As she cuddles with her Daddy and Jude is at home with Mo Mo, I wanted to go ahead and document her arrival while the details are in tact in my mind.
Because Jude came quickly (less than 3 hours from 1st contraction to birth), my midwife, Justin and I had reservations about Sadie coming even quicker. With the hospital 20 minutes away and I-90 traffic, we had peace in the final weeks about doing a natural induction to have a more controlled birth. At my last appointment (11/13) I was 39 weeks and 3 cm dilated and 60% effaced. My body was already showing it was ready and we solidified the plan to induce.
On Saturday, 11/16, Mo Mo, Justin, Jude and I enjoyed sleeping in, watching cartoons and a beautiful morning at the park before getting to the hospital a little after 11:00 am to check in. We all went together and Jude was able to see me get my IV, snuggle with me, and gave my Mom a chance to see how to navigate the area since she's never been to Issaquah before. Jude leaving was much harder than we anticipated, in that he did not want to go without me. He screamed, "Come home Mommy!" as Justin walked him and my Mom to the car. Talk about breaking my heart.
At 12:30 pm, my midwife stripped my membranes. I was still at 3 cm, but my cervix had gone to 90% effaced, so it was already thinning on it's own. At this point, I was having the same trend as I did with Jude so we were feeling confident we were moving in the right direction. We enjoyed watching the AU vs. UGA game and my contractions stayed exactly at 10 minutes apart from 2 pm-6:15 pm. At 6:15 pm, my midwife checked me and I had gone to 4 cm and was now completely thinned out, again, going in the right direction. She broke my water and pretty quickly, my body began to contract quicker, staying from 5 to 2 minutes apart through the night (starting at 7 pm and going until 6:30 am). I was able to get some rest from about 3-6 am in spurts. Mom and Justin also tried to rest and we made it through the night, in labor, but nothing too hard.
Around 6, since we had reached the 12 hour mark, my midwife and I discussed having a "whiff" of Pitacon to see if we could get my contractions stronger. At this time, they were occurring every 2-3 minutes, but were at about a 7 in pain, rather than super intense, which would get Sadie through the birth canal. I had peace about doing this and Justin supported my decision. At 6:45 am, 15 minutes after starting the Pitocin, I had my first really intense contraction. I was able to use the birthing ball, walk around and move much easier than I did with Jude. (At this point with Jude, my body responded to the pain with intense shaking, so I was confined to my bed.)
Around 9 am, my midwife suggested getting in the jacuzzi since I was having really intense back labor at this point. I got in and continued to contract as I had for the last few hours. The hot water definitely helped relieve some pressure from my back and my tummy. Around 9:35-9:40, my nurse and I began talking about progress, as I had stayed at this timing and intensity for a few hours at this time. During our conversation, I had a very strong contraction occur and I felt a pop. (I would later learn after Sadie was born it was her poor face ramming into my pelvic bone.) When I felt the pop, I had intense pressure begin and the contraction continued, bringing no relief. Justin, Mom, and my midwife helped me get out and dry off, the whole time, my body staying in the contraction. I said I need to lie down and once I was in the bed, I knew I needed to push. As soon as I rolled over, my Mom and midwife said, "there's her head" and I began pushing. Roughly 3 minutes later, our sweet girl was here.
Though the process was longer, when this little gal decided she was ready, she was ready. We are thrilled to have her and big brother Jude had a great response to her. He loves the new horses Sadie brought him. He wanted to share with her immediately (hope this keeps up) and his first questions were "Can I see her tiny toes?" and "Is Mommy's tummy different?" He didn't want to leave without her.
We hope to get home tomorrow and begin to adjust as a family of 4.
Every good and perfect gift comes from above.
Thank you Lord for your many blessings over our family.
*My computer isn't compatible to my camera, so I hope to upload more pictures on Justin's computer in the next few days.*
Monday, November 4, 2013
So, like any good Mom and Dad, we searched online to find the cutest horse costume around. After lots of searching and $30 later, we found one. The day it came in the mail, I was pretty stoked to see Jude's reaction. Well, it was a reaction of pure despise. As soon as I pulled it out, he said, "NO! That is Jake, not Sarge!" What this meant was, the costume we found looked like Jake, brown with a black mane. Sarge, on the other hand was grey with white spots. Oh dear.
I insisted that we would not get another costume. If he wanted to go get candy, he would have to wear it. The inner battle of a 2.5 year old desperately wanting candy he does not get often vs. demanding his way was one.
As you can see from this picture, Jude was rescued when Auntie JJ sent him a Halloween treat package that happened to include this Frankenstein mask from the Target $1 spot. She thought it was cute, threw it in, and ended up being the way her nephew got to experience Halloween.
On Halloween afternoon, Jude was still pitching a fit to get into the dern horse get up.We showed him his options: Horse, a borrowed lion, football player (b/c we have a few jerseys), or Frankenstein. He was not getting another horse. We wanted him to use something we had provided for him. He chose the mask, we had a cute striped shirt to go with it, and we became a Frankenstein family.
We had a great time on Halloween. We went trick or treating with a friend of Jude's and his Mom, also a friend of mine. We just stuck to our neighborhood and Jude got some good treats. I love not having to buy incentives. He gets 1 treat per day based on good behavior and chores. He has no idea that many kids just get to get theirs, and that's fine by me.
This time next year, we'll have two little ones running around in costumes. The Lord has truly blessed us.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
If you have ever read my blog before, or know me at all, you know that my favorite time of year is fall. I love everything about it. Cooler temperatures but not cold. Fall fashion, pumpkins, the smells, the fragrances, boots, football, the traditions, including Halloween and fall decor. EVERYTHING!
We have enjoyed the last 2 weeks with our fall traditions and making many more wonderful memories.
Happy Fall Y'all!
We have enjoyed the last 2 weeks with our fall traditions and making many more wonderful memories.
Happy Fall Y'all!
Saturday, October 12, 2013
As I prepare for Sadie's birth, I think back to those moments of bringing home Jude. The anxiety and excitement all at once. Our first child, the first grandchild on both sides, and as we prepared for our first cross country move. I can honestly say that I LOVE being Jude's Mommy. The way he would smile at me while nursing, his specific noise when going to sleep, how he has always laughed and had a sense of humor. As he began speaking and his love for animals became so apparent, it has been a joy to watch him observe, soak in, and begin to understand the things around him. He is a sweet boy, truly sensitive, yet very much showing his sinfulness daily. He refers to anything big as the "Daddy one", showing his awe of Justin, which melts my heart. No matter how minor a boo boo, he asks me to kiss it. When you ask him what he wants to be when he grows up, he'll tell you "a scientist like Daddy". But, he wants to study the moon, the stars, cows, and pigs. We'll see how that one goes.
He loves the colors orange, red, and green, pizza, bagels with cream cheese, milk, apples, anything with a ball, running, being outdoors, Elmo, Veggie Tales, reading books, and of course, his anything animals.
Jude also wants to please. He will often ask, "Was I bwave Mommy?" or "Are you pwoud of me Mommy?" His personality is much like mine in that he likes to be in control, but also wants to please. He likes things in order and is really becoming more independent. The other day, while going potty, he asked for privacy, went to the bathroom on his own, turned on the light, closed the door, and did his business. I was actually a little sad, seeing that he made it quite obvious his need for me was non-existent.
He has also began to love to sing and dance. Much to may embarrassment, his favorite song is "Cruise" by Florida Georgia Line and he knows many of the words. He has also shown up that he actually knows all the songs I've sung to him since birth, literally. The other night, he decided to sing with me while I rocked him. Every song, whether it be a children's song, old hymn, new praise and worship, if it's one I've consistently sang, he knew the words. He knows all his ABC's, often confusing M and W (since they're flipped) and can count up to 20. He wants to relearn sign language, since Eli is using it and we hope Sadie will too.
He asks so many questions and enjoys being with others. He is shy, yet warms up quickly. The days of him shielding his face into my shoulder or hiding behind me won't last forever. I don't think we should yearn for past moments, but I do think it's important to remember to enjoy the moment we're in. Looking back, it's easy to wish away those first few weeks when babies are up so often, and then the teething, the ear aches, the frustration of no talking, then the toddler tantrums, and then the attitude and being told "No" way sooner than you expect from your child. These moments are fleeting and I want to enjoy them. Not longing for the past, but just being in them.
Yesterday while eating breakfast, Jude looked at me and asked, "Does Jesus live in my heart?" Oh how my heart soared. I tried to be very careful and tell him that he had to make that choice and explain in his terms about forgiveness, trusting Jesus, etc. All things we try to teach daily. I know he's too young to fully comprehend what that means, but I pray every day that he will come to know Jesus as his Savior and I am so thankful that his heart is being sensitive to it already.
My sweet, sweet baby Jude, as I tell you often, no matter how big you get, you will always be my baby. My first child who captured my heart. The first heart beat I heard from the inside. The first kick I felt. The first cry I heard. Please know that I love you so very much. Though I think you're so wonderful, I also know you're in need of a Savior. I pray daily that your Daddy and I will point you in His direction. May you choose to live a life worthy of the Gospel.
Sunday, October 6, 2013
When we arrived, we set up camp, which included our air mattress. Jude loves this thing and we didn't know if we were going to be able to get him out of the tent for the weekend.
Thankfully, we came back Sunday evening, which gave me a day to regroup before starting school on that Tuesday. We had a wonderful time on our first family camping adventure.
Starting preschool has totally disrupted our "easy to go to bed" child. From the time he was about 6 months old, we established a good bed time routine of reading books, prayers, songs, then bed time. Other than a few seconds of crying, Jude has always gone off to sleep for both naps and bed time. He has even done well on our visits home. However, in our transition back from this summer, he has started to scream and cry before every transition to bed. We have a "lucky" moment every few days, but consistently, we prepare for battle. I know this can be normal for 2 and 1/2, but it doesn't make it much easier to deal with. It breaks my heart, because we just have to let him sit and cry it out. The few times I've tried to rock him to sleep or stay in bed with him, it literally postpones bed time upwards of 1 to 1.5 hours.
Also, if you're wondering about the tatoos in his picture above, he gets them when he sleeps without his bappy (pacifier). I'm not sure how we realized this was a big incentive for him, but thankfully, it's worked. :)
We have lots of more fall fun planned this month, including my birthday, a trip to the pumpkin patch, and some Halloween celebrations. This is always my favorite time of year, and with Sadie's arrival quickly approaching, we're truly enjoying our last little bit as a family of 3.
Thank you Lord, for your manifold of blessings...